What I miss about my husband

just wanted to make a note of a dream I had a couple of days where my husband died and how I missed him. I missed him walking toward me - I missed him returning with grocery shopping, I missed him coming with DVDs borrowed, I missed him walking toward me empty handed. I did not try to understand or interpret the dream.. The feeling of loss struck me so hard that I learned how precious he is to me. I wanted to leave a note to myself as this is not how I normally feel a hundred percent about him. I wanted to remember how I felt now for some day in the future when I'll definitely get mad about him.